..And I’ll write boring blog posts if I want to! 😉 I turn 33 today. I think this is the first year where I’ve had a twinge of the pressure of aging. I am In-My-Thirties now, 40 doesn’t seem so far off, what do I want to drive myself towards, etc etc. Not in any crisis way- I rather like being older- just realizing the choices I make now feel more “this is it!” than the limitless sky of options I felt when I was 19.
Last night I went out with friends for my birthday. To my favorite family-owned neighborhood restaurant, invited anyone I thought would come. Ended up filling about half the restaurant with people! It felt amazing to be surrounded in such wonderful, weird, awesome people- some of which I’ve known since I moved to Toronto (so about 15 years).
I was walking back from the washroom at one point, buoyed by pina-coladas and thought, “I wish 13 year old me could see this, she’d be so jazzed! This is exactly where I want to be!”. I was a lonely kid and to think I have filled tables with friends, all of which are artists, poets, teachers, all sorts of unique people. It’s a good life, and I suck at remembering that. I have trouble thinking myself out of the little sand-traps of daily life, and sometimes it’s hard to remember how far I’ve come. I guess that’ll be 33, learning to be in the moment and just keep sight of how good things are. 🙂
Thank you for your support, friendship, and for reading the silly things I post here. I am so grateful to get to continue doing what I love!
So there you go, me writing sappy shit on my birthday. Now I’m off to spend a couple days with my parents!
-Taeden
Such a great blog Taeden! It lifted my spirits knowing that your epiphany at 33 was mine at 30. Enjoy the rush and keep on, keeping on. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Not sure it qualifies as an epiphany, more a “shut up with the bitching” than anything. 😛 Thanks!